Monday, October 02, 2006

Good-Bye Family... Again!


I cant believe this is happenning again!
2 years have past since my family moved to Canada... time flew by so fast... but at the same time it seems so long, that we already feel like "Home". But... no... it was all an illusion... it came again the time, we all feared: Moving Out!
But instead of going to Japan... for a enormous cultural shock, and God knows it would take more than two years to learn Japanese... LOL... we are going back HOME! Yes, home! Now my question is, is it Brazil, is it Angola, or is it Portugal?...
My father was put out of duty by United Nations after denying his Mission in Japan, he is going back to Angola, his Motherland, he has waited for this moment for so long, and its finally happenning... i feel good for him, i'm sure things will be much better for him there, thats where he belongs and my Mother is going with him! When i heard this new, yesterday, i was totally suprised and i couldnt help but to think: How Selfish of Them! What about us, what about your kids? I felt sorry for my brothers and sisters, their future could be much better living in the 1st World!... But i guess not everyone has my ambition or they are just to young to decide by themselves! After a long everlasting chat... my brothers and sisters are going to stay in NYC... I'm staying in Canada for 1 more year! Truth is this transition fase its killing me... i cant believe this is happennig again!
Octuber 30th, is our deadline... ! Its like, 2 years its enough time to built up a good life... and then you have 1 month to destroy it yourself! LOL... really upseting! But we are all used to it! I'm so Sad, i can barely write or think properly, i've been in a very weird mood lately! But i guess i was pre-viewing those big changes... It's time to say... Bye food ready in the table, Bye washed clothes, Bye fixed room, Bye gas credit-cards, the non-paid phones, the red plates, the free parking.... LOL... Ouch... the everyday get togethers with my family to chat and laugh...
I'll MISS my FAMILY!
Ufff... Suspire!
Soundtrack: Good-Bye, by: Spice Girls.

1 comment:

sammyray said...

Be strong, sweet baby!!! You've got a lot ahead of you in your own life, wonderful adventures that would have taken you far from home anyway.

They will never be far away :)

I luv u