9/11... 5 Years!

5 years ago it was very early in the morning, my phone didnt stop ringing... when i finally got the energy to reach the phone, it was my Mom, screaming at me, scared, asking if i was ok... i said in a sleepy voice: "i'm fine, what did you hear about me this time?"...

she said: "Paulo there are planes destroying buildings in your area"...

i said: "Mom, you are probably watching a movie"... when suddenly all my house started shaking... and a greyish smoke filled my apartment with dust...

It was reality, i lived in Chambers St... its 4 blocks away from the World Trace Center... in the 8th floor, my whole apartment was in glass, my view was the "state of liberty"... i didnt have a straight view to the world trade center, but to Hudson River... it was beautifull...

That day after finally waking up, the city was in Caos, no trains, no phone lines, sirens every second, even the access to the internet was hard! And when i went to send a email to my Mom saying that i was ok, i received one saying: "i love you all"... from Remy. Remy was my booker, from the John Robert Powers, the same agent that managed talent like: Diana Ross, Spice Girls, Brad Pit to name a few... they had an office in the 81st floor of the 2st tower! Remy was starting her day at work that morning and i guess when she felt trapped, she decided to send an email to all her friends... as a good-bye message! I never understood that, till days later, when i finally realized she was gone! It was Horrible! Stories from this un-believeble event, arent hard to find... everyone in NYC had a friend or a known person in the "world trade center", it was one of the biggest employees in town! How many times i went to shop in the mall, how many times i went to see Remy in that office, she would say: "what are you doing here again, i told you i dont have work for you yet"

I was so excited to start working... i would be there all the time, but she would get pissed! LOL...

But i did work with her, with Swatch, Reebok (w/Allen Iverson) and Toyota 4 runner! She was very Business and Tough, but no one deserves such horrible end! At the end... She loved as... and she let us know!

My good friend Rodrigo, a brazilian, had his boyfriend Jack, working there too, they were in love and happy, they had built a life together, after the attack, Jack was gone, Jacks family was against the relationship (hatefull rich conservative family)... they took everything Rodrigo had built with Jack, there was no proove he owned it (you know, gay couples, only now can marry, not in America tho)... Rodrigo, was illegal, and they used that to send him back to Brazil! Just stop and think: "can you imagine losing someone you love, the most, and lose everything you had built with that person, everything, losing a whole life of work, of love, of joy, lose your home" and as if it wasnt enough, sent back against the will to the place, he once runned from! It's like a Nightmare! OMG!... Rodrigo is doing Great now, he is singing and his first album is coming soon, he is in Brazil, its been almost 6 years (when you are deported you can only come back after 6 years)... so he is coming... and i'll be so happy to see him again! I cant believe its been so Long! Time flew bye... After that "nightmare" every one in NYC was more friendly, caring, any minor sound people would be scared, or alert! In the streets everyone said: "hi, how are you," sometimes even a HUG, there was companionship, everyone had a flag hanging out of the window, car or even dressed! It was beautifull in that sense, people got united, we needed to be! In the other hand, America, will never be the same, what before seemed to be the saviour of the World, "the land of the free, and the home of the brave", the land of Spider Man, Superman, Batman... had shown weakness (some believe in purpose, just like me, for economic stability that has only drowned ever since, just look at the "Euro" its almost twice the US dollar)... What is Bush doing to this country?! Its just like any Star, you show weakness, you show being vulnerable and human, like George Michael and the world turns their back at you... only the real ones stay, but the star, doesnt shine as much as before... I'm not sure America has those real ones! Not everyone is Madonna, that can re-invent herself! LOL... America is going down like Michael Jackson and Whitney Houston (World Idols)... for the bad, they did to themselves!

I feel sorry for the Families, and the people that had nothing to do with this but still were victims of it! We had to use masks everyday, we lived in "War Environment"... we all were victims!

But here we stand... hoping and believing in a Better Tomorrow that shall never come!

I share Remys Message: "i love you all"...

Soundtrack: Never be The Same again, by: Melanie C. and Left Eye (R.I.P.)